Bedrest

Dear Wyatt,

I have been on bedrest since Wednesday.

I am absolutely wearing my phone's battery out texting and talking to people to get some social interaction.

My mom came over to visit yesterday and stayed until she had to go back home to lie down before working the night shift. It was nice to have someone here to take my mind off of doing nothing.

Today I woke up and felt like nesting, my mind was excited and adding to the list of things in my head I was going to get accomplished (I felt great, so why not? I would do light activity and stop if I started feeling bad). My plan failed before it even began. I started doing the dishes and couldn't catch my breath, got dizzy, and had to go lay down in bed. OK, so maybe I do need to follow the doctor's orders....hmmmppf....

Frustrating.

Little Wyatt, you haven't been used to all this inactivity. I have been feeling you wriggle around all day. Are you as anxious as I am about sitting around doing nothing? Maybe you always were active in there during the day and I just had trouble noticing because I was always waddling around the OR.

Regardless, I feel selfish in hoping things happen sooner rather than later, because the thought of being on bedrest for an extended period of time makes me miserable. I have always been one of those people that if you tell me I can't do it, then all I can do is obsess over wanting to do it. So before when I was working and swollen to high heaven I dreamt of spending the day in bed. Now that I have been ordered to do just that, I can't bear the thought and all I want to do is work and get things ready around the house for baby.

I'm trying to find things on TV to watch, websites to look at that I have been meaning to, and books to read. I have a rolling list of things I can do in my head to keep myself entertained. However, today was particularly painful, especially after the horrible feeling just trying to wash dishes.

But I need to do what the doc says, because it's about your safety and mine, baby Wyatt. My mom broke into preeclampsia with Matthew. She saw spots, had protein in her urine, Matthew came out early and blue and spent time in NICU, the whole 9 yards. Preeclampsia is common in first-time mothers and it is also a highly hereditary condition that is only "fixed" by delivering the baby, so we have to be careful because it can be dangerous and even fatal. We have been taking my pressures at home since yesterday and they are still elevated in the upper 130's-140's/ mid-high 80's.

If I did break into preeclampsia, Dr. W would deliver Wyatt right away. Her concern was giving him more time in the oven, and she's hoping we make it safely to at least 37 weeks. So I have to stay on my bum and keep baking my baby boy!

This weekend is the baby showers. One on Saturday with AJ's family and one on Sunday with my mom's family. I was told I can go to them even though I'm on bedrest - but I have to sit and relax and not make a whole day out of it. I am excited to be around people even though I hate events centered around me!

Me and my bedrest buddy, Biscuit

Love,