I got my Moby in the mail and let me just say that it looks easy as hell but for some reason I am Moby-inept. Then again each time I have tried to put you in it you decide you are hungry and are pissed off and we have to take a break. I finally got you in it and you immediately passed out, but it's in none of the holds that are in the manual (of course), but you are snoozing and I'm not waking that sleeping giant. I've been watching instructional videos so we will try again later to actually get in an actual "hold". Until now this is what we have:
This is from the girl who sometimes still has trouble tying shoes so there ya go.
I also have a big announcement to make: last night you slept 4.5 hours straight! I woke up to you whimpering at 5:30 AM (we wrestled around with you til 1 AM) and couldn't believe my eyes! I was so excited that you'd let us sleep that long that I planned on going running.
Ha.
My ass got back in bed and crashed again. I did fantasize about starting the Couch to 5K again, going to aerobics, tanning beds (I know, I know), pedicures, highlights and haircuts. Basically everything I did to get my sexy on in the past because right now I feel as sexy as a maxi pad.
Yesterday your great-grandma Darlene and I went to have your month-old pictures taken. You pretty much slept the whole time! We went to Sears because I got a coupon in the mail and all I really wanted was an 8x10 to hang on the wall to show what you looked like at a month of age.
The girl smelled like armpits and their editing software is ridiculous for what they charge, but with my coupon and everything I got what I wanted for under $50. I tell you what though, she was trying to sell me picture "bundles" ranging from nearly $200 - $400. I finally told her that I wasn't looking to spend that money and I've got hospital bills coming. Her face dropped but I'm too tired to beat around the bush these days.
Seriously, $400 on pictures at Sears? Did you not see me tow in this 1-month-old and bring in a coupon for a package for $8.99? Yeah, money is a little tight!
Anyway, we got that done and I plan on getting a 3 month, a 6 month, a 9 month, and then year-to-year pictures until you start school. The thought of going every month for a year is exhausting, dontcha think?
Momma T came by last night and I took the opportunity to lie down while she was over. I seriously think this past month of never getting more than 3 hours of sleep finally started wearing on me. I thought I saw a black dog in the house the other day, not Gravy coming to visit either, it looked more like a wolf. I also have been really anxious, moody, sad, and tearful the past couple days. I think lack of sleep + stress about childcare was really getting to me.
Last night I put you in bed with me when I was lying there feeling sad and we listened to Adele and it made both our souls happy - you fell asleep and I felt more at ease.
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| Snuggling listening to Adele |
I don't know many lullabies but I sing this to you a lot. You listened to a lot of Adele in utero so it's no surprise it's comforting and usually knocks you right out!
I can tell the sleep really helped. I got up today feeling like a new woman! No more worrying about work and childcare, things will work out. You aren't going to be dumped off just anywhere, no way and no how.
I felt sorry for your daddy last night while I was feeling sad. Your daddy loves you and he's still kind of nervous with you, he worries about when you spit up with the bottle and thinks he's doing something wrong. You are a little spitting-machine lately, even after burping and sitting up! Stinker.
Today it's just been me and you. You've been eating and eating and eating. I'm trying to wean down to 4 20-minute pumps a day. I think with 5 weeks left I need to start weaning down now or I will be in a world of hurt come time to go back to work. I still can't make up my mind on if I am going to try to "dry up" or continue to pump when I go back to work. We'll see. I'm not anti-formula and I am glad I can give you milk for this long, plus I have quite the stockpile in the freezer, so it will be okay either way. Not gonna stress about it!
Off to eBay now! I need to find another sleep sack for you. The one the hospital gave us knocks you right out at night, but it is heavy material and I need something cooler for summer, especially since we have been having 90 degree weather in March!
Here are a couple videos for the road. The first is just a sleepy, happy baby making some content noises and the 2nd is you having a bit of tummy time and trying to turn over and being pretty POed about it.
Love,
Momma
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